pabila sudah....

emo smacm je smnggu dua ni.... ntah la... x leh nk picturekan feeling ak ni.. bler orng tnyer bes tak duk kat cni.. ak ckap BEST.. rmei kwan.. but for HAKIKAT nya ak trsa ak alone..... ntah la.... bkan x de kwan... abis tu kwan ak dri skul rndah 2 liya ngn waniey??? kwan dri mrsm besut YANA... bkn ke kwan 2... liya siap serumate ag.... tp orng2 mcm x pham ap ak rse skrng.... ak x pndai nk trjmahkan prasaan ak kpda kata2.. sbb ak mmg x pndai nk brkata2 nk suh orng pham... TOLONG la pham... so, xyah la desak2 ak wat bnda2 tu bnda nih... ak x de mood... ak skrng cme follow the flow je... n ak rse ak x dpat nk suarakan pndapat yg ak rse.... (about to cry la nih)... bile ak brsuara ak rse orng sume buat2 x dgr or mmg x dgr betul tak thu la tu kan... ak rse geram la... nk mrah ngn diri ak sndir.... (mata ak dh brair) serius!!~ ak rse ak tringt kan MAMA ngn PAPA ak...rndu sngt2.. ak rse ak down gler... serius! first time ak tlis blog smbil mnagis ni.... wlaupun dri luaran ak nmpak cm ak ni easygoing n senng je... but ak ni powm ad feeling yg ak sndiri x dpat nk interpret... okey, spe yg knal ak, pnah tak tgk ak mrah?? ak mrah powm mmg jrang gler kan... or bler ak mrah powm, then ak happy blik... tp sbnarnya ak mrah pd diri ak sndir sbb ak mmg x pndai mrah orng...smua ni x brmkna ak xde kwan kt sini but ak cme rse ak dsishkan n alone.... mybe prasaan ak je.... ap yg ak ingin ckapkn ak rse x dpat d trima oleh smua (prasaan ak)... ntah la.... confident level ak trus decrease... mse ak kat matrik dlu ak dkire sbngai orng yg agk confident...ak mmg ssah nk nangis... n ak akn nangis bler ak rse bnda2 betol2 sdih... smalam ak hmpir2 mngis.. sbb smalam powm ak rse diri ak agk suck... ak take a deep breath... sbb ak rse DOWN sngt2... then pabila dieorng ckap cme bg advise tuk ak, ak dh rse okey..tuk kbaikan. one thing ak rse psal diri ak yg ak bru discover adlah, ak x leh trima tguran orng lain bg trhdap ak.. even tu adlah tguran form PARENT ak... ak rse ak je yg betol... bler ak dtegur, ak akn buat again n again repeat bnda sme ak akn buat ..pdhal bnda yg ak buat 2 bnda yg mmudratkan ak... smua tguran dri parent, friend adlah baik n tuk kebaikan ak dn smua.. cme ak je x leh trima... PLEASE teeqa MUHASABAH LAH diri anda... i need someone shoulder to cry about!!~ then i will back to normal... ]] yg sker shoppim n kasut...i need someone that i can call as frens an tell all then thing that i'm fell right now.. i don;t want to cry alone again....!!~...

DON"T!!~