pabila sudah....

emo smacm je smnggu dua ni.... ntah la... x leh nk picturekan feeling ak ni.. bler orng tnyer bes tak duk kat cni.. ak ckap BEST.. rmei kwan.. but for HAKIKAT nya ak trsa ak alone..... ntah la.... bkan x de kwan... abis tu kwan ak dri skul rndah 2 liya ngn waniey??? kwan dri mrsm besut YANA... bkn ke kwan 2... liya siap serumate ag.... tp orng2 mcm x pham ap ak rse skrng.... ak x pndai nk trjmahkan prasaan ak kpda kata2.. sbb ak mmg x pndai nk brkata2 nk suh orng pham... TOLONG la pham... so, xyah la desak2 ak wat bnda2 tu bnda nih... ak x de mood... ak skrng cme follow the flow je... n ak rse ak x dpat nk suarakan pndapat yg ak rse.... (about to cry la nih)... bile ak brsuara ak rse orng sume buat2 x dgr or mmg x dgr betul tak thu la tu kan... ak rse geram la... nk mrah ngn diri ak sndir.... (mata ak dh brair) serius!!~ ak rse ak tringt kan MAMA ngn PAPA ak...rndu sngt2.. ak rse ak down gler... serius! first time ak tlis blog smbil mnagis ni.... wlaupun dri luaran ak nmpak cm ak ni easygoing n senng je... but ak ni powm ad feeling yg ak sndiri x dpat nk interpret... okey, spe yg knal ak, pnah tak tgk ak mrah?? ak mrah powm mmg jrang gler kan... or bler ak mrah powm, then ak happy blik... tp sbnarnya ak mrah pd diri ak sndir sbb ak mmg x pndai mrah orng...smua ni x brmkna ak xde kwan kt sini but ak cme rse ak dsishkan n alone.... mybe prasaan ak je.... ap yg ak ingin ckapkn ak rse x dpat d trima oleh smua (prasaan ak)... ntah la.... confident level ak trus decrease... mse ak kat matrik dlu ak dkire sbngai orng yg agk confident...ak mmg ssah nk nangis... n ak akn nangis bler ak rse bnda2 betol2 sdih... smalam ak hmpir2 mngis.. sbb smalam powm ak rse diri ak agk suck... ak take a deep breath... sbb ak rse DOWN sngt2... then pabila dieorng ckap cme bg advise tuk ak, ak dh rse okey..tuk kbaikan. one thing ak rse psal diri ak yg ak bru discover adlah, ak x leh trima tguran orng lain bg trhdap ak.. even tu adlah tguran form PARENT ak... ak rse ak je yg betol... bler ak dtegur, ak akn buat again n again repeat bnda sme ak akn buat ..pdhal bnda yg ak buat 2 bnda yg mmudratkan ak... smua tguran dri parent, friend adlah baik n tuk kebaikan ak dn smua.. cme ak je x leh trima... PLEASE teeqa MUHASABAH LAH diri anda... i need someone shoulder to cry about!!~ then i will back to normal... ]] yg sker shoppim n kasut...i need someone that i can call as frens an tell all then thing that i'm fell right now.. i don;t want to cry alone again....!!~...

DON"T!!~

the better me..

ak rse ak pnyer soulmate frens x jmpa ag... mybe it still to early to say but about 2 week at UTHM i'm not meet yet....i'm rather choose to be silent than talk alot than before/...if people been discuss, i'm rather stay beside n see... if anything, i'm say it rather than before that i'm will ikut serta mereka mmbisingkan diri... actually ak rse ak ad PERSONALITI yg agk pelik krana ak somethime ak akn rsa confident gler trhadap diri ak ni.. n somethime ak akn rse diri ak SUCK, teruk n everything.. kyakinn ak tros ilang...smua things yg ak buat n akn brlaku ak slalu je pikir NEGATIVE rather than POSITIVE>....slalunyer positive thinking ak jrng ad.... bkan ap, ak find out hdup kat u ni kureng gumbira brbndingngn khidupan ak d skul n matrik.... mungkin ini adlh stu prubhan trbsar buat ak??? mungkin prasaan ini adlah biase or cume ak shaja or mnuju ke alam kdewasaan... ?? ak tak fham ngn diri ak sndiri.. alangkah mnriknya apbila wktu brputar kmbli, n ak kmbali ke zman persekolahan... xprlu lgi mmikirkan masalh2 ni.... mslah yg brtmbun2... mslah study, peribadi yg x abis2, mslah kewangan, n everything... ak inginkan zman prsekolah itu kmbali... tp msa sudah brlalu... ap yg prlu ak buat adlah truskan khidupan... tmpuhi cbaran2 ini dgn tabah.......

eunhyuk pkai chasing phone sme ngn ak la... ak wrna hitam n die wrna hjau... SYOKKKKK>>>./......\\

a day of uthm...

at first i'm tell u about my class member....we are at first mmg malu2 smuanya.. nk perkenalkan diri smua ckap slow je... hak3... nk kuor suara powm mlu2... hak3... then bler kiteorng kmpul for pndftaran kursus tuh smua mmg tunjuk belang ah... hak3... first expression ak mmg pkir bdak2 klas ak ni stok2 jnis nerd2 skema... jmpa2 kli kdua, mampus ak... suara bdak klas kteorng yg kuat gler.. gelak2..ha3.. amik kau.... klas ak mmg 1 malaysia.... okey2... 2 malay male... amat, iwan.... 2 chinese male... (dieorng snyap skit so, ak x ingt nme dieorng, sorry dowh!!... hak3..), 1 indian male...kannnan... 3 chinese girls yu nien, poh hee n su ling (su ling ni orng sarawak n pendiam..die x geng... lau yu nien ngn poh wee die geng kiteorng), n 9 malay girls... ak, ummu,yana, faz,saidah,ain,mizah,akmal,fazirah) n yana 2 kwan ak mse kat besut... so, x la akward sngt ak lam klas 2 wlaupun m.cik ummu 2 ckap bnyak potpet....hak3.. trok3.... n fazirah bleh ak x ingt..mmg suck gler ak rse ak mse ak first prknalkan diri biler ak x ingt die sbnarnya stu skul ngn ak KAMIL.... suck gler.... hak3... smua mcm, biar betul die nih...hak3.... mse first day kter orng stat klas, ak, yana, ummu g anjung fakulti nk amik sume borang2, pengecualian kredit, ngn borng koko.. then kterong kner posim2 uthm ni nk antar borng sume ni.. first kteorng jlan rmei stu klas, then pecah2 tnggal la ak, ummu,yana, amat n iwan.... brjalan2 la kite orng naik bus trun bus pusing sluruh uthm..smpai dh expert tmpat2... yela sesat x yah ckap r.... klas first kterong kat DKL.. byangkan ak tnyer PA ak, die ckap maybe DEWAN KULIAH LIBRARY... prgi la ke library yg TERBESAR D SGALA UNIVERSITI MALAYSIA ni... (wat bngga skit)... mmg serius bsar.... ak kagum gler2... hak3... then bdak klas ak plak kol ckap yg kne g DK yg dkat dwan besar DTII... DTII 2 tmpat die dpan skali, dkat pntu pgar kuor... huh.. naek bus ag....penat gler... kaki ak mmg dh nk crame la... sib baek ak pkai sandal je.... x la mlecet mner.... mau tak nyer ak pkai sliper jepun... tp pkir ak ni freshie.... nk blagak pkai sliper jepun...ap plak ckap seniorkan...then dh smpai kat dwan bsar srng ak bdak klas ak kol yg klas kat blik seminar kat FAKULTI ak.... mau tak nyer nk marah.... amat ngn iwan rilex je... dieorng ckap...ala rilek ah.. ni la tyme nk pusim2 UTHm.... bleh je korang rilek... nk mmpus.... naek bus ag.... blajar la ak ngn tnng,,... then, klas dh abis... ap lgi ak blik tido ah... hak3... sme gak ngn ary ni klas x de.... 1 powm x de... bes gler... rilek je.... pusim uthm la keje ak.... hntr borng 2 borng ni....ary ni sure x sesat ag... expert la ktakan... hak3.... nk tgk jdual klas ak yg mmg x pack.... berbeda ngn jdual klas liya,atin ngn nazi....

ni plak gamborak ngn rumate ak.. mse larian kampus..... bes kot....(click kat gmbar lau nk tgk jdual 2 lg dkat)

ni plak gambar ak TERPRASAN mse tnggu runate ak wat g pjabat PTM.... ni keje ak ngn liya.... die snap ak, ak snap die... tp yg bnyak ak snap die ah... ish...x aci lasom...

first day uthm

okey...i'm become uthm student stat now n for the next 4years..... okey ORIENTATION WEEK... oh... o_O... OMG... x sker2... stat dri orientation dri Mrsm BESUT THEN KMPP now UTHm powm ad orientation gak dowh.... huh... okey2... my fmily n starts our journey to johore a day before orientation day then stay one night at VONO PARK hotel kat BATU PAHAT... a day register day, tired dowh.. dftar kat dwan DTII... then dftar kat kolej kdiaman ag.. ak punyer KOLEJ KEDIAMAN TUN DR ISMAIL.. (ank mak la ni) okey dftar punyer dftar ak smer ngn kwan ak LIYA.. okey bereh sal perdftaran... then searh for room plak... cri pnyer cri, TINGKAT 4 ARAS 3.... tnggi dowh..dh la dkat hjung2 nih.... not enough rest... orientation day kter orng mmg letih...busy.. letih sngat n busy sngt smpai nk korek idung powm smpat kate orng la... rumate ak liya, sorg bdak kmpp (nadzirah), n bdak KMK... (atin) kami hdup dgn aman dmai nya... actually at the first i'm cannot adapt wif u life yet....at first my room infractruction agk trok (wat terok) accully mmg slesa but kipas not function well..kdang2 jd kdang2 x jd... lmpu blik air powm sme... suis die ad msalh kowt..ak powm x sure dowh/.... at first ak still homesick.. hak3... jauh kowt 12 hours.... hak3... mne bleh idop... ak dh brthun2 dh idop hostel nk homesick ag... (NED nk ajk g SINGAPORE) jom!!... kter orng x yah wat passport je... wat pass lawatan... n kiteorng ad student UTHM rate..so, agk murah.,.... jgn jELES yep ned..hak3.... even my rumate best but i;m still miss my old rumate... yati,zati,wanis, n our alien, posh,ummi, ned... wlaupun blik kat kmpp agk buruk dri sini, blik 2 ttap best,,... hak3.... my course COMPUTER ENGINE... WHAT THAT??? it is my dream become TRUE>. or different...so, i'm not know yet... x knal maka x chenta kan??? n the last one, i'm a first who MANDI!!~... jgn marah LIYa; ATIN N NAZI hak3.... *_*...

pen off....